This is where the moon shines bright.

Time flies when you are with the one you love.

3 hours feels like a minute when I’m with you Kat. If I can just hold every second and keep it inside my palm I’ll do it. Time can be our enemy, time can be an ally. We cannot stop it nor ignore it. But every moment I spend with you, looking at you, makes my time sparkle.

Your skin glows when I look at you lit a cig and puff smoke. When you puff smoke and I look at the cig touch your lips, time slows down and at that moment, I wish I was that lifeless thing touching your lips. Feeling you. But I can only stare.

As we walk together, my heart beats fast and I get lonely because time isn’t with our side anymore. Every step I make, I cherish.

I am always charmed by you.

Always.

Kat. :D

Dear Kat,

As I sit now on my office chair, I suddenly thought of something.

I want to build a house for you.

It may sound too fast or weird but I really want to make a home for us. Somewhere we can be carefree and we can laugh as loud as we want and just be plain happy. It would be a home for us and a home for our dreams.

This is where our life and love story will take place. I want a nice porch where we can sit every morning, smell and feel the soft breeze on our faces like soft cotton on skin. I also want a little zen garden where we can relax, lets put a small fountain so we can hear water and be relaxed by it. I will build you a good kitchen, where you can cook and do your stuff in. Our kitchen will be your personal space where you can do whatever you want without me interrupting you, you know what I mean. ;)

I will make our sofa cozy so if you fall asleep while watching the television you’ll be comfortable in it. I will buy a big one so I can sleep beside you. I will make a basement just for you, and I will build you a dance studio where you can dance all you want and party all you want.I will bring the party to you. Of course, I wouldn’t forget to make you a mini bar where you can store all your booze. I’m sorry but I’ll put a lock in it and I will keep the key. At the top of our house is an attic where I will build our mini theater, don’t expect too much because it’ll just be a television and a room full of pillows and I’ll put a small fridge too!

And lastly, I’ll make sure there will be a small lawn for the two of us where we can lay down and watch the sky.

I love you.

Julie

P.S. Of course I was joking when I said that I will put a lock on your booze. Just promise me you’ll share. ;)

Dear Kat,

I will always look forward to having breakfast, lunch and dinner with you. Always.

I love you.

Julie

p.s. And midnight snack too.

Dear Kat,

It has been a roller coaster ride for the both of us and I cannot imagine myself riding on that roller coaster with someone else. I am loving you more and more and I will love you more until the sun stops shining on my face. Sometimes I tend to be stubborn too. I am sorry for being such a bad ass sometimes but I only become like that when I’m not with you and when I am terribly missing you and your skin. I love you and if I will not just say it to you but show it more.

I have written a lot of letter for you to cherish those little memories we have made. I always remember the day when we were on the zipline. I wanted to go back to that moment again and kiss you. You we’re screaming at the first push and I was screaming too! :) And I remembered that moment when you said, “Beb! Hawakan mo kamay kooo!” Oh, that voice I love.

I will always hold your hand. My hands are locked on yours.
Hugs will be tighter.
Kisses are sealed.


I love you dearly and I hope you won’t get tired of cooking for me.


I love you.


Always Charmed,
Julie

P.S. Happy Birthday. :’)

She has been always a little kid. Stubborn but I LOVE HER. :)

I just love her to death.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

- If  You Forget Me

Pablo Neruda

As I was heading home this morning, after an exhausting night, it was raining. I got pissed because I wasn’t able to ride the bus I wanted because of that f*ckin bus driver waiting for passengers and yet no one’s riding that old, loud and non- airconditioned bus of his. So I waited again, for another bus to arrive. People walking right pass me. Men smoking, women holding plastic bags with them, waiting for the next bus, waiting for their turn like me.

Then its starting to rain a little bit hard, lucky me I don’t have an umbrella with me. So I whispered to myself, “What the hell.”, and then I stopped and looked at the skies. And yes, it was getting darker.

At last my bus arrived, the only bus I wanted to ride. So I hopped in, looked for a seat and sat down. I looked at the TV screen and the movie was all about war, soldiers fighting. I payed my fare on my way home, familiar faces I see whenever I ride the bus telling me that I’m on my usual time to go home. The rain was starting to fade.

So the bus was on EDSA, Megamall, Cubao, Kamias, and then I looked by the window beside me. Looked up in the sky, and guess what I saw.

I saw a rainbow.

I cried, I don’t know why tears fell on my cheeks as I saw that wonder. I was in a state of shock when I saw that. Everything stopped. My world stopped and I didn’t wanted it to move. I stared at it, I knew I stared at it. It was 10 seconds, or maybe a minute or maybe more than a minute. But I knew I was staring.

I admit that I am not that happy now. I am not the usual me. But when I saw that, when I saw that rainbow, I knew that God talked to me, and I knew what He was trying to say to me. I knew that He was telling me that everything will be alright. I was crying, I was sobbing but I didn’t care if someones looking at me. That was the last thing I’m expecting to see. I closed my eyes for a second and said my thank you.

Thank you. And then I breathed deeply and smiled.